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Sweet nothings.

I clearly don’t know how to keep up with a blog, but I’d really like to document what happened today… From every small irrelevant detail, to the massive blackout, I want to remember it forever before time diminishes my memory of it..

- Had a phone interview for a job on campus at my new school and got hired! Best 10 minute phone call ever.. And mind you, I was still in my pajamas!
- My KBEL was finally coming home from San Francisco today and I had the privilege of picking him up from the airport. Nothing beats that first hug and finally being with him again. And he had a little brown bag of goodies for me as well, which was a plus, hehe.
- We spent time in our own little world and decided to wander around SD to find something to eat. We rarely have a destination in mind whenever we go out, which isn’t always the best idea with how high gas prices are, but the memories that we have together are well worth it.
- Around 3 in the afternoon, San Diego was hit with a massive blackout and all the stoplights went out! People were completely oblivious to the fact that they weren’t working and would just proceed through the intersection with no caution. We were hit almost three times and the traffic was ridiculous. So thankful that we’re safe. We had way too many close calls. 
- Unfortunately, everything was closed due to the power outage. From Target, to In-N-Out, to McDonalds, to Plaza Bonita and to Conchings, we decided that it would be best to go home and just spoil ourselves with food tomorrow.
- I would also really like to say how thankful I am to live in this time. I can’t imagine what it was like back in the day to live without electricity. I ate cold chicken and rice for dinner today… I wish I was joking, but it wasn’t that hard to stay optimistic when I realized that there are people out there who don’t have hot meals everyday. I think a lot of us realized how much we depend on electricity and how much we took it for granted. Giving thanks to the Lord for all my blessings.. 

Whoever is actually taking the time to read this probably won’t think that my day was as amazing as I’m making it out to be, and maybe you’re right, but it was the sweet nothings that I had with Kevin that brought me to this blog in the first place. I don’t know what it was about today that had us laughing so hard. Maybe it was the heat that was driving us a little off the edge, or the fact that we haven’t seen each other in a while, but we had the best time laughing at absolutely nothing.. You know, getting stuck in traffic, having near death experiences, wandering around with no purpose, seeing a random dog on a roof trying to jump off (i’m serious), pretending our car is an airplane (i’m serious about this as well), finding $100 in the middle of the street (lol, no i’m just kidding), and pancakes that look like hash browns… It’s the little things that I enjoy the most.

My life is wonderful.

Posted 4 months ago

Sacrifice

I can’t help but wonder if I made the right decision. And even then, I’ll never know for sure if it ever was. With that being said, I feel like a horrible person and that I fell short of what I expected of myself. That I didn’t try hard enough and gave up on something that meant more than anyone could ever even understand. I don’t want to regret any of the decisions that I have made, and I can only hope that my thoughts regarding the situation begin to subside, but I hope that one day I’ll be able convince myself that it was all for the best. But for now, my heart aches with the absence I feel and the wonder that I will always have. If this is the meaning of sacrifice, I still don’t understand.
I guess just like all the despair life brings us, time will be sure to heal it all.. And just like every other situation that has left me feeling this way, I just have to give time, time.

Posted 6 months ago

Asked by Anonymous Anonymous

what college are you going to?

I’m going to Cal State Los Angeles in the fall.

Posted 6 months ago — 1 note